Here we go again......

Don't they say 7 is a lucky number? I sure hope so because March 2013 there will be 7 of us. Yeah I know I said we were done, and we really thought we were. Just a month before I found out I was pregnant we made the decision that we were done. We liked that our kids were getting older, trips were getting easier, we would have no one in diapers after having it for 8 straight years! And I was finally losing my weight and looking fine!! Okay maybe not fine but I was finally starting to feel good about myself and getting excited that this would stay and not get ruined by little babies. Well obviously someone else had something else in mind. Because it seems like right after we decided we were done and needed to do something permanent we got preggo. Not quite sure how it happened, well I know how but it really shouldn't have happened. Let's say not everything is 100%. So here we are. Expecting #5. There goes my no diapers. Will I really be changing diapers for 11 years straight? I am determined to get Noah potty trained before this baby comes. Let's hope. Honestly the thought of one more isn't what scares me. This will actually be the biggest gap I have ever had. And I have 3 kids in school. This should be easy peasy compared to my other scenrios I have had when my babies have come along. It's really all selfish. I don't want to get fat again. It sucks and it takes me a loooooong time to lose it and look and feel normal again. Luckily this baby is a Spring baby. I have always wanted one and never got one, until now. So I am hoping that I can continue to workout/walk everyday to not get so fat. Kids are really excited. They are all hoping for a girl. I am too but let's be real. Odds are it's a boy. Which is fine but I just hope heavenly father understands I need a chill boy who's easy going like Nick is. So far this has been my worst pregnancy ever. I think it has to do with being the sickest during the summer so I had all 4 kids home all day. It's hot so no one wants to go outside. All I want to do is lay on the couch and close my eyes because if I open them I will throw up. The last 2 days have been good so I am hoping this is the end of it all. Nervous and excited to find out what this little stinker is. Ready or not it's coming!